I spoke to this person many times in the last two days, her story checks out 100% and I believe her. She has asked me to write it in my words. She now married, expecting, happy and living with HIV, a forever reminder of her very brief time in porn. She has approved this post.
She came into the biz right before an outbreak, she got an agent and she had high expectations, like a lot of girls that come into the biz she wanted to be “the next Jenna Jameson.”
She shot a little bit but one of those times was with someone who later tested HIV positive. When she found out she had been exposed, she immediately quit the biz, she admits that she was in denial, and didn’t want to know, when she woke up one morning feeling a little under the weather she went to the drug store and bought a HIV oral swab test, ten minutes later her life changed forever. She had insurance so she went to her doctor and he confirmed her worst nightmare, she got HIV. She was conflicted about coming forward, after seeing how the people are treated in the biz when they test positive. She sat down with her agent and discussed it and the agent told her to disappear.
The reasoning was simple, everyone had been tested (so they thought) she has a college degree and she has insurance so she didn’t need financial support. They both felt that simply disappearing like so many girls do was the best option. It bothered her that she may have exposed someone else but time took that worry away. She moved on with her life.
I asked her if she had been identified by the industry as someone who had a direct exposure, she told me that she had not, nobody ever contacted her at all. I asked her if she was sure that she got infected on set, and her response was an emphatic 100% yes. She had confined her sexual activities to performing. She went on to give e the name of the person she got it from and even told me how to find the particular scene.
When I asked her why she was coming forward now, she said that it had been bothering her to see all the times that people in porn were claiming no on set transmissions since 2004, she knew that was wrong. She was infected much more recently than 2004. She also said that she had written me emails a lot of times then decided not to send them, she didn’t want the blow back if her name got out, when she read here that I am retiring she knew that it was now or never. I assured her I would take her identity to my grave and if push came to shove I would say I made the whole thing up. She is now married, expecting a baby boy and happy in her life. The meds are working and her viral load is undetectable, she expects to live a long and happy life.
It is things like this that make me question retirement, I mean how else would this story ever get out? But does it really change anything? Will even one person read this story and think that maybe porn isn’t so safe as I have been told. We all know he answer and I need to step down for my own health, hell I’m too old and the biz is dead anyway. Internet porn will continue to survive but Porn Valley is dead. Writing about porn has become a chore for me, it isn’t fun anymore, and I have pretty much said all there is to say. But I regress, this isn’t about me, this story is about a young lady who believed that she was coming into a business where safety was the first concern and then learned very differently. I have no doubt that The FSC will continue to tout the no on set transmission mantra, but that’s a lie, we knew it was a lie before this girl came forward, Even Rolling Stone Magazine pointed out that it is a lie.
This does leave me with one question though, given the revolving door that porn is….is this the first and only time that this has happened? I know what I think.