I Wasn’t Going to Update Today:

But something happened to me that I wanted to write about. It hurt my heart.

As I was driving to my little brothers house for our family Holiday thing, I made phone calls to friends wishing them a merry Christmas or whatever.

I didn’t expect an answer from this person really, but she answered and I wished her a Merry Christmas and told her I loved her ( and I do). She was cheery, as she always is and I inquired if she was in Cali or her home state. She told me she was home and I told her that was good. She is a very happy person, at the pinnacle of success, she never says anything bad about anyone, not even in private conversations, she is sweet and genuinely nice. I asked if she was having a great Christmas and she cheerily replied that she was, then she said “considering everything”

I heard it in her voice that she wanted to talk, so I said Uh Oh sounds like everything isnt all roses.

I could hear the hurt in her voice, she tried to cover it and pass it off matter of factly, but she couldn’t fool me, someone else maybe, but I have grown close to her.

She told me that family member #1 had slipped up and let family member #2 know that she was working in the business we all know and love. Now family member #2 would not allow his/her children to be in the same house with this girl.

It is Christmas Day and she is sitting in her car in a parking lot reading, and waiting for family member #2 to leave so that she could enjoy Christmas with the rest of her family.

This time it was me who was hiding it, my heart was so broken that a family member would treat her this way, specially at this time. I wanted to fix it somehow, but I couldn’t. It is sad really because she is as fine a person as I have ever met, in or out of porn.

I talked to her until I arrived at my little brothers, I tried to pass it off and change the subject, but it stuck with me, all day. It made me thankful that I have a family who may not approve of what I do but they fully approve of my right to do it. They do not feel a need to protect the children from me and they don’t judge me, they love me regardless.

I wish I could pass a bit of my family’s wisdom on to others, I am sure that my friend is not the only one to face this kind of reaction and my heart goes out to anyone who does. but this was someone I know and love, someone who I am proud just to have her private number to be able to call and wish her a Merry Christmas.

She reads this site and she knows who she is, all I can say is that yer in my heart, I hope your family member comes around and realizes that they are the one with a problem, not you!

For All My Not So Christian friends: (Compliments of Southpark)

I’m a Lonely Jew:

Its hard to be a Jew on Christmas
My friends won’t let me join in any games
And I can’t sing Christmas songs
Or decorate a Christmas tree
Or leave water out for Rudolph
‘Cause there’s something wrong with me.
My people don’t beleive in Jesus Christ divinity

I’m a jew.
A loney Jew.
On Christmas.

Hanuka is nice, but why is it,
That Santa passes over my house every year
And instead of eating Ham
I have to eat kosher Latkas
Instead of silent night
I’m singing, “Hoo Hach Do Gaveev”
And what the fuck is up with lighting all these fucking candles
tell me please.

I’m a Jew, a lonely Jew
I’d be merry, but I’m Hebrew
On Christmas.